Inexplicable

10:33PM - Shake the dust

A great performance.

10:29PM

Derrick Brown. Oh Derrick Brown knows that whispering is sexy.

10:02PM

The Two Gallants: A James Joycean band.

1:05PM

"Let him come out of this a trifle high. But what kind of high? High, I think, like someone you love coming up on the porch, grinning, grinning, after three hard sets of tennis, victorious tennis, to ask you if you saw that last shot he made. Yes."

7:34PM

Outstanding.

4:23PM

Howard Zinn died today.
J.D. Salinger died today.
Damn.

3:21PM

It is raining and thundering and cars are sloshing around on the road. I just want to make a recording. It's absolutely glorious.

7:31PM

things I like:

cooking with people
watching movies in bed
limes

things that i don't like:

being allergic to raw fruits
pimples
being sick

3:34PM - PHOOOOOOO

7:44PM

Had the loveliest and most heartfelt conversation with Abby about nothing really. We're both sick and in a way, it's kind of sweet that we're both sick at the same time and conversing on the telephone.

12:20AM

Sometimes, like earlier today, I feel uninspired and at a loss of what to do. It pains me to think that I don't really care about anything, that my life is so artless, so bland, so pointless. Nothing is particularly great....and then I go to Hedi Slimane's website. Hedi's done it again. This is so perfect. You really wonder how someone comes up with things like this? Humans are so amazing.

2:36AM

2009

January

Drove in a car with a friend who was sad and broken-down hearted.

February

No Valentines received, so I made one out of paper scraps, staples, and bones.

March

She didn't believe anything he said. They just sat on separate sides of the room, she on the hardwood floor, he on his unmade bed.

April

The coming of big rain and almost sex dreams and crying friends. Awkward and stupid and mean and uncomfortable and hurtful for all parties.

May

I come and you go.

June

planes, horses, camels, no zoos, no animal crackers.

July

Babies stretching their toes out, mothers crying in agony.

August

a hug and a kiss, and a tip and a tap.

September

Lying in bed alone. fuck.

October

Costume hanging in the closet. Money spent. Costume still in the closet on a wire hanger, gathering dust.

November

Boy, no, man plays with cat in empty house.

December

We've changed, you've changed, but it's a good change. Actually, I lied, you haven't changed and I love you because you haven't. Let's drink soda with ice in coffee mugs like old times and then maybe we'll be drunk on the sugar and do the electric slide together. It's hammer time!

2010

January

We all came from different parts of the room with our own cups and made a toast to the new year. We should have bought cereal for the morning. Damn hangovers.

7:48AM

SICK! TOTALLY LAME! Today was going to be my first day as a Monday clinic volunteer. I was so excited and then I had to get SICK. Sucks.

8:30PM

I'm leaving in two weeks for two months. OH MY GOD. I just have a chem final and a math final and this goddamned english paper. Time will fly so fast that I'll start whining about how I should have started studying earlier. And then I'll be done with my math final and then the carrots will be cooked. This is so surreal. Well, Miss Mara (as Tamara (coolest woman on the reservation) used to say) get ready to get plane sickness. SICK SICK SICK! Well at least I'll be working in a hospital...oh wait...that means my chances of getting sick are highly probable.

I'm taking a screen printing class next semester. I'm hellza excited. I have so many project ideas, but I haven't had time to execute them because of academic work and scheduling. Next semester will be a fruitful semester. I plan on exercising at least three times a week starting next semester to build up stamina. I used to run everyday, and then I got lazy. And I used to take yoga, but I'm not really into the new teacher's style. So I'm going to have to find a new sport. Maybe squash? or Shuffle board? or table tennis. Such fashionista sports. Maybe I'll start taking salsa dance classes with Niki. Or maybe I'll start doing martial arts again. I did kung fu for 6 years and then karate for one year and so on. Maybe I'll take on aikido...kind of a slow martial art though...maybe judo so I can spar with my dad. I also have to apply to college for the third time in my life. Such ughness. And that's not even the enddddddddddd.


Well until then, I will study organic chemistry, which is kind of like naming children. It's torturous funness.

Man, it's baking out there.

10:44PM

This is the most poignant performance of Maps thus far.

2:40AM

Dear journal,

I hate you. Good bye.

11:43PM

10:33PM

He reached down into mother earth. He stretches against gravity, moving east like a sheet on a line. He reached his dirty fingernails into the white clouds. Each second he is different like the alps that evaporate into the air each spring. The blind girl asked the clown where the Lilies of the field were and he said they were in her eyes. So she started crying and when her blue tears soaked the ground, salt roses bloomed out. God and his wife started arguing and his falling saliva was the rain that made the oceans so vast that the whole world drowned in anger.

7:46PM - Linda Linda!

Oh man, this is sweet. A movie about Japanese school girls forming a punk band. What's not to love? And they sound like the Ramones!

10:04PM - RON PAUL REVOLUTION

Why isn't Ron Paul our president? He's a physician (who studied obstetrics and gynecology This means he knows women better than they even know themselves, war surgeon, and a best selling author. Seriously.